start a new life

a few day before, masa kita dating, saya ada cakap nak hadkan kita punya contact start bulan lima ni, sebab ppt dah nak dekat. saya nak focus belajar. nak study. saya bukan cakap awak ganggu saya, tapi... saya takboleh nak focus bila ada awak. saya asyik fikir pasal awak dan akhirnya melalaikan saya. bukan saya tak sayang awak, saya sayang sangat sangat. tapi saya terpaksa, spm is also coming soon. i dont want to make my parents dissapointed of my result. i want to be success in my life. thats why i want to make myself not-so-closed with you. not because i hate you. of course iloveyousomuch dear 💏

malam tadi, 10th of April 2016, kita sama sama buat keputusan untuk mula jauhkan diri masing masing sbab bulan lima dah nak dekat. awak prihatin pasal saya. awak suruh kita stop contact for a weekdays. and i put a condition, eventhough kita tak contact, every sabtu malam, we must otp. i want to talk to you. and of course i miss you sweetheart. hm.

last night, you were crying out loud. i felt so guilty sweetheart. and i said if you cant accept what i am planning, just stop this plan. i can accept it as long as you dont cry. its okay for me. i dont want to see you sad. i dont want you to cry about this. we are not even break up! we were just make our relationship not-so-closed because i want to concentrate on my study. i wont ever leave you baby. i wouldnt leave you. please, dont make me feel guilty and sad too. if you are sad, i will feel the same too. we both need to be strong 💪🏻

so today, is the starting of my new life without you by my side like always. what i mean by always by my side is, we would not whatsapp to let each other know about what we've gone through for the whole day. i wouldnt get any goodnight wish again from you. i cant be clingy with you. i cant do anything with you anymore. hm.

i am started to miss you my baby 😔

amx xoxo 💕 

DAY I 🍂