bawak motor

Hello hey. Okay ini lawak. Haha yey finally I know how to bawak motor yeyyyy. Tahun depan boleh ambil lesen haha. Belajar dengan kengkawan. Thanks to Allah sebab ada kawan yabg pro pro belaka bawak motor. Haha lol. But I still need to practice more. Kalau time nak bawak turun/naik bukit tu memang nazak hahahaha sumpah seram.

Duhh guess what, my class need to do some perfomance on hari persaraan dua orang cikgu sekolah jumaat ni. We decided to do choir. Haha k lawak. Nyanyi lagu Nothing Gonna Change My Love by George Benson. Retro bakhang. K. Shit, I need to stand dekat tengah when we perform the song. May Allah bless me. Haha. Thats all bye.

for a while

Hey there. Guess what? I've talk (wechat) to him just now! Haha yey! Eventhough just for a while, but I'm really really happy. Yeah, I miss him. Deeply miss him. This lately, I always dream about him. I also dont understand why. Auch. Haha so sweet. Puihhh ignore me haha. Lepas rindu sikit even kejap je sembang. Em. Rindu angat. Em.

Eh wait, I never told u where he'll be going right? Hahahahaha. Pardon me. He is SPM's victim. Form 5. Heheh. Yea, worried bout him. Always worried bout him. How lah he study.... How I wish he could at least pass in his exam. This is his future. Its okay if we did not wc for a month. I'm okay. I want him to be okay. 

Ya allah, please ease him on whatever he did please. Bless him ya Allah.

some souvenirs

Hey haha late night update maybe haha. Auch I need to be rush to update before my mom come and snatch her tab from me. Lol. K. So thi is some goodluck cards and a shirt for........ ehem ehem hahaha. Ya for him. Him who? Him that I crush into haha. I make the cards since 8:30pm until just now 12:30am. Its done. What the hell so lame of me? Haha shut up. I'm just to tired of thinking what should I do and what should I put at the cards. Everything be mess. Auch but I do it sincerely from my heart for him. How I wish he'll appreciate and keep it. Because I said, if u dont like it, just throw it, but deep inside my heart, 'if u throw it, u'll die' hahaha no its joke. Tmrw I'm going to school because today I'm off (ponteng) haha who cares? Yea its gonna suck staying 7 hrs at school. So goodnight and bye.

holiday

I've spend my one week holiday greatly! Fucking great bij! Haha. Started from Tuesday until Saturday, I'm not at home. And not even in my country. Haha. Started from Kota Bharu, Kelantan then Kuala Terengganu, and Thailand! Weehuuuuuuu! Damnly best holiday ever. My parents spend a lot of money into food haha. No souvenir. K redha. I cannot do anything..... Yea we went to many places there, such as Yala, Pattani and many more and I couldn't remember hehe. Whatever. We eat so many type of food. Always different time to time. Nasi air, nasi kerabu, tom yam, etc. Different places, different food. Haha this is really my favourite part. I cannot even forget every taste of the food. Ugh, started to miss there.... Lol. 

When I was at Thailand, I saw a lot of motorcycle. There, they used motorcycle to go anywhere. And they dont even care about want to wear helmet or not, eventhought they at city. At first, I'm really surprise with their law. But then, I feel like want to stay there. Seriously, there, they are free. They can drive without license when at city, no police will stop and saman them. Watlek. And what I really fall in love is their scooter. Ughhhh seriously I want that!! The scooter name 'scoopie' Soooo freaking cute if you look at that scooter. There were may type of scoopie. If I could have one.......... 

Haha tomorrow I'm not going to school. Chillex at home. But I need to fold all of the clothes at home. Shit. What can I do hmmm. Haha thats all bye.

defak am I trying to do

Yesterday was very shit day that I ever had in my life. And I'm the shit that doing that shit thing and make my day become shit. Wtf mannnnnnn! I broke my friend's heart. Whose my friend? Her. Yea her. Girl that I always talk about. My bff. Idk whether she also thought I'm her bff. I dont know. Fml shit wtf wth had I do to her!!!! Seriously this is my very big mistake that I ever did in my life to her! Rude me rude!

I ruin her great day. Yesterday was supposed to be her date with her boyfriend. But I'm ruin their day! I bothered them. Then they didnt went for date. All happen because of me! See? I'm really shit! Wtf wtf wtf. She supposed to be happy on that day, but because of my mistake, they didnt went for date. And she didnt even happy. All because of me! Loser loser loser!

And until now....... we dont even talk to each other. She already hate me maybe...... and how I wish she wouldnt do that. I need her to be some part of my life. I want her forever be my bff. I dont understand my feeling tbh. I dont want to lose u, my friend. How I wish u could understand me. Sorry for all my wrongdoing babe. Em night.

be honest

I've just tell the truth to her, my bestie. Em idk why too hard for her to explain why she changed. I let myself to be really honest to her. I talk all the truth. What I feel before this, all. All. But why cant she tell me the truth? It it too hard for her. Whats really my mistake? What did I already do to her untill she dont want to tell me the truth. Secret. Forever secret she said. I cannot. My life wouldnt be peace if she dont tell the truth.

I cry as fast as the river. I dont understand my feeling. What the fcking hell had happen to me? Because of my bestie I can cry like this. I dont know why I really really love her to be my friend. Since first we closed. I dont want to lose her.

She've been changed this year. We got different class. She have her own friend and so me. But I dont really close to my classmate. But she.... close like em. I dont how to explain. She cant feel what I feel. About 3 month above we're not close like dulu dulu anymore. She've been changed. Wherever she go, she always with her classmate/deskmate. I just.... emmm. I cannot do anything. She have her own life and so me. I dont want to bothered her. So I try to stay away from her. But I cant. After a year we've been really closed nak mampoz I cant easily forget her and find new bestfriend. Because only her can accept me, only her know how to handle me, only her know how to chill me, only her. But I know, I'm just busygirl in her life. I'm just.........

I dont know why I really love her to be my friend. Yea, theres many more friend outside there. But you know, 'kawan memang ramai nak mampoz, tapi sahabat sorang dua ja' Understand what I mean right? Conceal dont fell dont let them know. I cant let anyone to replace her. I cant find any of them.

Sorry because I'm too demanded. I'm not sesuai to be ur bff. How I wish u could understand what I feel one day. May Allah bless u, my dear bff. If one day u read diz, I want u to know that I really really really fcking love to be ur friends and I dont even want to lose u. Thats all. Lots of love and some tears from me dear, night.

over

Late update. Tapi tetap nak update jugak.....


PT3 IS OVER GUYSSSSS!

But..... pbs still on like normal. Fml fml. Kbye

get life bij

So hey. Dude. K seriously and to be honest, I hate you, friends. Eventhough I always smile and act like everything is okay and fine, deep inside my heart I feel like I want to kill you. Cut you into eighteen can I? Shit. U're just a piece of shit bij. Seriously, u're perampas. Em. Yes. I'm jealous. Freaking jealous. U're just newbie in my bff life, then u steal her from me. Dont u feel what I feel? No I'm not lesbo shit -,- But... u know what? She's the one who came into my life and can make my day cheer and can make me like umph... I dont know how to explain. She's just too nice and I really love to friends with her. She's my bff. Not yours shit! Not yours!! Yes, I know everyone can friend with her because she has her own hak kannnn? If you want to be friend with her, just friend lah. Takpayah nak over sangat. Beria nak letak kat bio kau nama dia ah apalah. Wey, kau takda orang lain ke? You think you're good enough? Get life bij get life. Aku dah lama sabar je dengan kau. Kau perli aku, kutuk aku depan depan, pikir aku takda perasaan? Do you think I'm typical people with sado's heart? Bij, I'm a girl with heart and feeling. Kau fikir kau sorang je ada perasaan? Dude, susahlah kalau aku je nak kena cakap berlapik depan kau, nak kena jaga hati kau, nak kena respect kau. Kau fikir lawak ke sentap sentap tu? Pikir comel ke kalau kau buat gitu? DASAR ATTENTION SEEKERS! I fck you for the whole of my life bij! Change urself please. Jangan jadi perampas bff orang. Apa manusia lain dah pupus ke nak buat bff? Last, fck u bij fck u.

Assalamualaikum

hari koko sch (( throwback ))

dude hello haha. k serious hari koko was a very tired day ever. huishh i cant breath. Hari Usahawan Muda, my class sell bologneise and carbonara spaghetti and mushroom soup + potato bun. at first, i thought selling spaghetti wouldnt laku. tak laris. nobody would buy it. but..... pukul 10 lebih kuah spaghetti semua dah habis! licin! fuhhh, seriously, terkejut gila pak ah. tapi... mi spaghetti banyak lagi. at first kami ingatkan nak biar je mi tu, tapi banyak lagi. so, my class teacher decide to cook back kuah spaghetti. sebab sayang, membazir je karang mi tu. upss forgot to tell, AKU YANG MASAK KUAH CARBONARA and BOLOGNEISE tu. cehhh promote. hahaha. pisyo. so, cikgu ajak aku balik pergi beli barang and blend bawang and potong potong bahan yang nak masuk dalam kuah spaghetti tu. huish yang part ni lah paling adventure plus tired gila. sebabkan rumah aku paling dekat dengan sekolah, so cikgu suruh blend bawang kat rumah aku ja. dari dekat sekolah berlari pergi kat kereta cikgu, sampai kedai groshop, berlari beli barang. pastu rushing pergi rumah aku. sampai rumah, NOBODY AT HOME. wtfish. k. disebabkan aku dah biasa bila kunci rumah takda, aku panjat tingkap atas, masuk rumah. potong potong apa bahan yang patut, blend apa bagai semua. 15 min. k settle. berlari masuk kereta pastu sampai sekolah, berlari pergi kat gerai masak balik kuahnya. masuk apa semua bahan settle. tengah tengah dah nak siap masak, tetiba i saw someone! ALONG! my brother come! haha sumpah excited gila sampai terlanggar kawan dia. unexpected gila. sanggup along datang dari utp tronoh datang sekolah aku. k sayang along to the star and back. haha. k after along balik, my friends and i plan to finished our haunted house and haunted cinema ticket. so we come to haunted house first. seriously, fcking bored. i sleep in that cinema. shit. after that, we back to our stall. after a few minute my phone vibrate. guess who?!! OMG! MY CRUSH! HE CAME! i die i die i die......... for a sec hahaha. he said he's at some place at my school. so i went there with my friend. from far, i saw him..... omg he's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fcking handsome. huwarghhh, if i could hug him, i will hug him tightly that time. but no. i cant. haha. in my dreams je lah. lol. then i took him walk dekat gerai gerai semua. dia datang kejap ja. sebab kawan dia dah nak balik. aishhh. spoil ah. so i ask him to selfie and snap some photo with me. k........ HE'S JUST TOOOOOOOO CUTE till i can die. hahaha. no jkjk. thats all. bye.