katering

weeeee hello guyssss. today i felt so happy plus tired af huaa. okay so harini aku pergi kerja katering with my bf's father. so thats mean i am working with my boyfriend also! i dont know how to story bout today. but i have so much fun with him today. with all of his sporting aunt and cousin and friend.   yeah. kerja aku harini just basuh pinggan kat belakang cause i am so done with all the work dekat depan. sebab kena marah dengan cikyan sebab letak nasi sikit sangat. then aku cam nah lah buat lah sendiri. lalu berlalu pergi kepada bf ku yang tercinta yang sedang mencuci pinggan. pastu aku cam tarik bata, duduk sebelah dia and tolong bilas kan pinggan. yey. with him! i spend almost of the day with him. i look at everything he do. he is so daymn cute af. no, actually he is handsome. but to me. since he is my baby, then he is cute. yeyyy heeeee. and ya, today is quite tired. lepas balik je dari katering tadi, terus mandi, solat asar dan bummmmm terus tidur. pastu azan maghrib, bangun, solat dan terus bummmmm tidur sampai lah pukul 10 tadi baru bangun. haha. my bf pergi tengok bola kat stadium. he's out and not home yet. awh imiss him so much right now. cant wait to wait him home. i want to otp with him. want to be clingy clingy with him heeeee yey. baby love me ❤️

okay i felt hungry suddenly. need to fill my stomach. okbyeeee 🙈💕

idk

last night, i went to STAR for a school programme. ada pameran experiment fizik. all those experiment presentation by the 16 school under g16 was dayum very good. but aku tak sempat tengok semua experiment. and i feel very very menyesal. the time given for us was really really short you know? starting 8 pm until 10pm. no way! too short! only two hours for 16x2 booth we should watch. haih. menyesal.

okay lets start the real story. hmmmm
guys, last night also, i almost break up with my bf. semuanya berpunca daripada aku yang tak reti nak sedar diri akan kesilapan lalu. a few days before i went to STAR, i ask a permission from him, to take a photo with my buddyz (guy) there. at the time i ask, he gave me. dan tiba tiba bila aku balik semalam dari STAR, he's changed. everything! semua berubah. dia perli perli aku. cakap pasal lelaki mana entah aku jumpa kat sana. padahal tak pun! ughhh menyampah gila. buruk sangka. overthinking. susah do cani. haih, and you know what? suddenly, tengah gaduh gaduh kat ws, tibatiba keluar lah ayat ni dari dia...

"saya ingat nak mintak break lah dengan awak"

and i was like WHATTTTTTTTT! speechless sangat sangat. weh like seriously? lepastu dia terus call aku, cari pasal. pastu dah puas dia cari pasal, he said he want to leave me. dia nak lepaskan aku. holy shit. my tears shed heavily. i dont know why i am crying. tbh, i also want to breakup with him, but when he said it to me first, aku rasa macam tak sanggup. no aku taknak. aku taknak hilang dia. i cant lose him. i dont even want to lose him. yes, i can find another guy that is much better than him, but i dont know why my heart dont want to let him go. noooooooooooooooooooooooo. i'm crying harder and harder, and he doesnt even care and bothered about me anymore. he dont even pujuk me. he stick with his cold heart. he's really really mad at me. he cant accept me anymore. and i kept begging and begging to him to not let me go. i feel so useless. aku rasa macam sangat sangat terhegeh hegehkan dia. entahlah taktahu nak cakap macammana pasal perasaan ni. truth is, my heart cant accept the lose of him in my life. 

alhamdulillah, this morning, kami berbaik semula. and this is the last chance for me to prove that i am loyal with him. to prove that i love him. tapi, aku kena stop contact with any guys i know. focus on my study and him only. i'll try my best okay baby? sorry for everything.

stupid

sumpah doh perangai kau cam gampang gilaaaa. baguslah ambil gambar dengan perempuan? sengaja nak buat aku jeles? sengaja? puas hati kau dapat sakitkan hati aku? lepasth layan aku macam gampang. aku jujur salah tak jujur pun salah. pergi mampos lah setan

his sight

okay macamni, tadi pergi taayah. ada program teknik menjawab chemistry. dari pukul 8am sampai 5pm kat sana. ada 3 slot. and kat sana ada sekolah lain sekali, program ni under g16 perak. so ada wakil dari 16 buah sekolah.

so cerita dia macamni, time slot last, slot 3, kitorang baru habis lunch, rehat etc. then cikgu dah ada kat depan, semua duduk tempat masing masing. guys, guess what, sudenly i saw someone yang yatohan handsome nyaaaa huwaaaa. i kennod. dari pagi duduk situ, langsung tak perasan guy tu. dah nak balik, last slot baru nampak dia. straight to the point from my place aku boleh nampak dia. haih, serious cam woahhhh. aku pun apalagi, usha lah mamat tu. tengah usha usha, pup dia pandang. Allahhhh kantoi lah usha diaaa huwaaa malu. pastu aku buat donno la. tak lama lepastu, aku tengok dia lagi, awh handsomenya. suddenly dia pandang aku jugak, aku cam terpaku kat mata dia. aaaa his sight. cam kenod stop looking at his eyes. kami berpandangan lama. pastu aku pandang tempat lain. gila mamat ni. berani gila tenung orang. uish. pastu aku cam main mata ngan dia hahaha. serious cam takleh serious nak tengok dia, tengok lama sikit, aku tergelak. tapi yang bengangnya, muka dia serious gila. aiyo cam nak tumbuk. aku syok sendiri ke aiyo. pastu tak lama lepastu, aku tengok dia lagi, and suddenly he smile. OMG aku macammmmmm emmmm kau senyum kat siapa weyyyyy tadi kemain muka serious cam nak makan orang, tetiba senyum pulak. pastu aku cam blur. sebab aku ingat dia senyum kat orang lain, so aku cam tengok tengok lah kiri kanan depan belakang aku, seban ingat dia senyum kat orang lain. huish kang aku senyum balik, dapat malu je. sebab dia pakai spek, so mata dia cam pandang tempat lain, padahal pandang aku... hihi. pastu cam lama ked, aku tengok dia balik, and aku senyum. andddd guess whattttt! he smile at me back guyssssss! awhhhh handsomenya. dupdapdupdap semnye. aiyo. lepastu main mata lagi ngan dia, pastu senyum senyum awhhhh. comelnya mamat ni. 

tapi sedih.... aku tak tahu nama dia. ig dia. twitter dia ke or anything hm.... ralat sangat. aku sempat tanya dia sekolah mana je hm. sedihnyaaaaaaa. and aku cam psiko gila angau kan dia right now. struggle af nak cari ig dia hmm. 

i think i've fall in love with his sight 😍😍

baik?

wait aku sumpah doh tak faham perangai kau ni. serious serious. semalam and kelmarin kemain kau baik gila ngan aku, tetiba harini camgampang doh perangai. sumpah fak orang perangai camni. ey boleh tak jangan nak main main kan perasaan aku?! fak doh. tolong lah awak tolong lah. jangan pelik pelik. saya penat nak kawal perasaan sakit hati ni haih.

dah lah kowt

i think i should stop the Day diary for you. nothing is sweet anymore between us.

yesterday, actually we are almost breakup! because of my own stupidness. such a useless do. and he's change suddenly in a few sec into a tiger. because he said i challenge his kesabaran. i am stupid enough. definitely. i dont know how to lie you. i cant lie you. i am scared of you. yesterday awak berubah 100 percent. bodoh bangang buto semua keluar. semua tuju kat saya. haih. saya pun taktahu kenapa saya masih mahukan awak. sedangkan macam macam awak caritkan saya. awak tak kesian langsung dekat saya. awak baran sangat sangat semalam. sampai awak tak sedar segala perkataan kotor yang awak carutkan pada saya. walaupun macam macam yang keluar dari mulut awak, saya still nangis dan merayu pada awak agar awak tak lepaskan saya hm. saya taktahu lah kenapa saya tak biarkan awak lepaskan saya. maybe because, you are the only person yang selalu bagi perhatian pada saya, all of those stuff. haih. i dont know what to say else. i am just... love you 😔

Day 4: hands on challenge

so today, me and my 4 others friend were presented our hands on challenge building model to the judges. well actually, we are participating the hands on challenge competition in our school for the science and mathematics carnival. and actually, we all should present our model yesterday since yesterday is the competition day. but, since i and 2 others need to go to mckk so we ask a permission from the teachers to skip the day and do it by today. so today is the day. butttt one of our group member is absent today. i was like a bit feel sakit hati gak ah. but what can we do? let bygone be bygone, we take an initiative to take one of our classmate to join us and replace our absent group member. this is the brilliant idea ever because she is brilliant. lol.

about 4:15 pm, after the solar competition done. its our turn to present our model. the presentation had going well. everything is fine with us. but.................................. DAMN IT! our problem statement of why we build the model was inaccurate! the situation given in our question paper is actually about how to build a stable building. but we build an eco friendly building! aiyooo for sure lah our building takde kena mengena langsung. ya Allah ya tuhanku. haih. tahlahnak. so the judges said, "tengok lah dulu cemana nanti saya bincang dengan cikgu lain" hmmmmmmmmmmmm k. kami hanya mampu berdoa. may we win. sebab we all want to go to GGSC!

amx xoxo

14 April 2016

Day 3: mckk

so, harini pergi mckk. ada bengkel menjawab bi. yatohan bosan nakmampos. tapi, i met somebody. my buddyz. hee. sombong gila aiyo. and i met ed dekat perjalanan nak masuk dewan, dia tegur "hai___" lol okay. no heart feeling langsung kat dia. serious lah. tapi harini sangat membosankan. i sleep twice when Slot 3. start from pukul 2 lebih sampai 430pm. kau fikir? lama gilaaa. bontot cam kebas gila nakmampos. hahaha. okay bye. so conclusion dia, harini bosan. noob.

rasanya mesti banyak hw harini 😭😭

amx xoxo 💕

13  April  2016

Day 2: lambat pick up

harini, entahlah. rasa macam emmm lampi sangat sangat masa belajar. first first, pagi pagi tadi belajar fizik. hmmm tak faham sangat apa cikgu ajar. saya cam lambat gila nak pick up. pastu belajar bio hm lagilah. belajar pasal locomotion of bird. ada kawan saya tu, dia kena present pasal tajuk tu. dahlah dalam buku teks takde pasal tu. dalam buku teks bm je ada. pastu dia terang kat depan emmmm tak fahammmm! langsung! sebab cara dia terang tu emmmm 😭 belajar chemist pun hm padahal simple je. tapi saya macam susahhhh sangat nak fahammm ugh. entahlah awak saya pun taktahu kenapa saya teruk sangat sekarang. fokus entah kemana. hmmm.

awakkkkk! esok saya kena pergi mckk hehe. ada program bi. awak, saya dah janji dengan awak, saya taknak noty. saya baik. saya dah ada awak. saya kena jaga hati saya untuk awak sorang je. saya cuba taw awak? insyaAllah saya tak noty heee. 

awak, saya lapar. mama pergi kursus seminggu kat ipg ipoh. pagi tadi, abah dah bagi duit kat uda, suruh belikan lauk untuk makan tengahari... hm uda tak beli! awak, saya lapar lah 😖

amx xoxo 💕

12 April 2016

Day 1: mengantuk sangat sangat

awak, harini saya mengantuk sangat sangat. asyik nak tidur je dalam kelas. tersengguk sengguk. ni, dah balik rumah nak buat hw tadi pun saya asyik pejam mata je. emmm ngantukkkk.!! awak, tadi saya tertidur waktu kelas fz. saya tak tahan sangat. pastu terkantoi! cikgu fizik saya tegur "___ tidur ke?!" huwaaa maluuu saya terus duduk tegak sambil jari pusing pusingkan pen pastu acah acah tengah baca kertas. hahahahah. maluuuu. hmmm. awak, saya tidur awal taw harini. japlagi pukul 4 bangun lah kowt. insyaAllah. harap harap saya dapat bangun dan tak ngantuk dah hm. saya ingat nak tahajjud pagi nanti. insyaAllah. moga Allah permudahkan segalanya untuk kita 😊

11th April 2016

amx xoxo💕

start a new life

a few day before, masa kita dating, saya ada cakap nak hadkan kita punya contact start bulan lima ni, sebab ppt dah nak dekat. saya nak focus belajar. nak study. saya bukan cakap awak ganggu saya, tapi... saya takboleh nak focus bila ada awak. saya asyik fikir pasal awak dan akhirnya melalaikan saya. bukan saya tak sayang awak, saya sayang sangat sangat. tapi saya terpaksa, spm is also coming soon. i dont want to make my parents dissapointed of my result. i want to be success in my life. thats why i want to make myself not-so-closed with you. not because i hate you. of course iloveyousomuch dear 💏

malam tadi, 10th of April 2016, kita sama sama buat keputusan untuk mula jauhkan diri masing masing sbab bulan lima dah nak dekat. awak prihatin pasal saya. awak suruh kita stop contact for a weekdays. and i put a condition, eventhough kita tak contact, every sabtu malam, we must otp. i want to talk to you. and of course i miss you sweetheart. hm.

last night, you were crying out loud. i felt so guilty sweetheart. and i said if you cant accept what i am planning, just stop this plan. i can accept it as long as you dont cry. its okay for me. i dont want to see you sad. i dont want you to cry about this. we are not even break up! we were just make our relationship not-so-closed because i want to concentrate on my study. i wont ever leave you baby. i wouldnt leave you. please, dont make me feel guilty and sad too. if you are sad, i will feel the same too. we both need to be strong 💪🏻

so today, is the starting of my new life without you by my side like always. what i mean by always by my side is, we would not whatsapp to let each other know about what we've gone through for the whole day. i wouldnt get any goodnight wish again from you. i cant be clingy with you. i cant do anything with you anymore. hm.

i am started to miss you my baby 😔

amx xoxo 💕 

DAY I 🍂